All along 
Guardian you don't exist lack of faith is "in" again. 
Fall alone is setting in. 
She stayed cold 
And left me dead 
Now it's driven in me head 
That everything must end, 
That every book must close. 
But nobody forgets 
All forced sensations, 
You know just won't last. 
A fow relations, 
All seem to grow crass; 
Uninspired and far away 
From who I need to be. 
All so disappointing. 
Hear with nothing 
I will leave, the same. 
This path I'm on 
Disrupts all function. 
No discern no hope for calm. 
Inner dysfunction. 
I've never felt so alone, 
Never felt so disconnected 
From someone yet 
Helping in their the all 
Struggling to feel the things 
That just cannot be forced. 
Desperation takes it's toll. 
Surrenders to them all. 
Start again so far from here, 
Knowing the truth, that all along 
You were just holding me down, 
Pulling me down, keeping me down.