My brother we lost you to the waters that have always lied to us I lost you thought my hands were quick but never quick enough I lost you to demons that have grown up in the crib with us And I wasn't in your corner when those lies came to fisticuffs My other were all born with a dragon branded on our shoulder blades Scars are invisible But my spine knows the weight All of us in the struggle don't need a diagnosis When depression is a constant We all know but do not notice The diplomacy of monsters Those we hold up Are we lifting them up Or are we tying them down to the altar We anoint our leaders young But if I had been there in the lobby Would you have made it to the balcony How many hands do we need To do right by the mouths you feed The position of the ugly sun Has heat to kill the shade away Dead songs of unwillingly servants Laid still but still lay awake No candles on the deathday cake Couldn't find it on the schedule Couldn't pull the strings to get it going Cause I'm all out of geppetto moves Handcuffs and statutes Strange fruit makes bad juice State house and don't shoot The solution of medusa Trying to turn us into statues If I could only make these hands loose Your mother's voice is the only one that names you It claims you I definitely don't want you to feel the way that you do My calendar still knows your name So happy birthday time traveller See the frozen flames Tried to apply first aid When challenger first rose to fame I was in the third grade They fell to earth when explosion reigned Melted whatever snows remained Now the chasm is river sized like Arizona openings Now the pattern is giving highs Like serotonin dopamine Citywide black and blue regalia Trade apologies like a boat exchange Say all mine I'll say all yours Master of human failure Overseen the underhanded Fumbling like I'm from the panthers I don't understand cause I had a hundred grand plan Now I want an answer Living life boastfully Should I get rid of my hopes and dreams that didn't die Give advice This isn't like it was supposed to be