I was living in a dream That I mostly still believe in And the love I chose to give And the love I got were even Then my balance was upset By an unexpected harm I was taken by surprise When I lost my lucky charm It was early in the spring When my life was changed to winter And my sanity and hope Had begun to crack and splinter Now I'm living on reserves Of the dreams I kept inside me And when all of them are gone It will leave a hole to hide me I have reached to friends for help But my need has kept them distant And the bitter tide grows high But my foolish dream's persistent And it's easier for me to run Than to watch them pull away I would give my world of friends To have my lucky charm today My little lucky charm Is a little hill of ashes And all that's left behind Is a chain of painful flashes And the friends who turn their backs Are a lesson I'll never learn And my little lucky charm Will never return