Living is that sickening feeling of swaying over the edge When naming the days feels like counting down I take what I can get because I've given more than I possess I hold my head high because I'm trying not to drown Understanding what gets you through might end up killing you Understand what's killing you Like trying to feel pleasure without pain Like trying to survive without vice Jumping in with both feet just to tread water Trusting others too much and yourself, not enough Understanding what gets you through might end up killing you Understand what's killing you Disposed on the side of the road, left to wonder If the headlights are a savior or a killer Conscious mind, body paralyzed, just trying to wake up Living is the sickening feeling of dread Living is the impending presence of death