Look, yo 45 but feel like I am immortalized Back on the road to success, hope it's a shorter drive The game is different, doesn't matter if you murder words These kids not only killers but they're also all computer nerds Ask questions later, type of guy and shooter first But now I pay attention blessings from the universe That doesn't make me soft, I promise I am off my rocker Minus the case of Heineken and 20 shots of vodka Minus the groupies and the Gucci into the Xanax bars Minus the walking around like I am from the planet mars Minus the cocaine and the pills and maxed out ran up cards Minus the youth but add a beard, I look like Santa Claus Minus the oxycotton hoggendaus and candy bars Minus the damaged star fake friends and brand new car The glamour cameras always hanging where the gangsters are Strip clubs club houses motorcycles ran it hard Going a buck 20 hands not on the handlebars Brick wall that I was headed for before I got clean Minus the undercover cops raids and swat teams Arguments that escalated quick shots that rocked teams You shouldn't fall for that bullshit Sitting in my window with a full clip, so many sleepless nights These knots in my stomach don't feel right Getting texts its from a psychopath, your best friend So many bodies on them texts its got me stressed man Mass murderers and sleepovers at my pad Life was different, so don't ask me why I'm mad When an addict gets addicted to some bad shit life is hopeless But when we become addicted to some good things, we are hyper focused Excel at hyper speed well thinking what my life could be From little psycho to unlikable insightful for G Life's a scary movie lot of daunting hunting frightful scenes Took me half my life to realize that's not the life for me I was angry with myself, I have the right to be Now far as I can see I'm going farther than that I can see Minus the tough guys that got caught and turned rat Gave up all their best bros and watched them all get burned bad Minus the life of crime, the straps and the knives, you'd find The only love of my life, I lost the wife of mine Thought that being a stand-up guy was the right ingredient They didn't stand for much, more like stand-up comedians Respect and honor honestly mostly I just saw greediness And gangsters they got egos that you need to feed repeatedly You shouldn't fall for that bullshit Sitting in my window with a full clip, so many sleepless nights These knots in my stomach don't feel right Getting texts its from a psychopath, your best friend So many bodies on them texts its got me stressed man Mass murderers and sleepovers at my pad Life was different, so don't ask me why I'm mad