I had to have, I had to hold I had to be so strong and stand alone I had to know, I had to name I had to play so hard to win the game But just like water can turn into wine I’m not too proud to change my mind So I gave up taking chances I gave up pushing rivers Steered clear of the rapids I never lost control I tried to stop the thunder Didn’t want to hear the thunder Clapped my hands on my ears So I wouldn’t have to hear My own fears… I had to have, I had to own I had to be so strong and stand alone I had to know, I had to name I had to play so hard to win the game But just like water can turn into wine I’m not too proud to change my mind