I’m unlike you

How can I change the image looking back 
when I stare in the mirror
A man before me stands there bathed 
in self-doubt hatred and fear
But I pound the glass as I keep looking back 
at a soul that’s empty and gray

I push away but you keep coming back into me
I am unlike you
What I am is insufficient by your standards
So I’ll be more like you

I’ve kept a lot of the things 
I’ve wanted to say bottled up through the years
I’m floating through a river of hope, drowning in an ocean of tears
Remove the cap as there’s no holding back
Release how I feel inside

I push away but you keep coming back into me
I am unlike you
What I am is insufficient by your standards
So I’ll be more like you

So I’ll be more like you
I’ll keep away from me

How can I mend this
Make you forget this
Grow into a skin you’ve made for me
Although I don’t mind, I’m not your kind
Turn my back as you once did to me