I try to stop all these 
Gay thoughts and feelings
I don’t know where they come from

Oh all of these gay thoughts
I’ve had trouble concealing
Since I was fairly young

I tell them I love you
I don’t wanna lose you
But they don’t mind

I hardly believe me
I always deceive me
Time after time

Part of it’s nature
The other part seems darker
Don’t know what to blame it on

Try to control my behavior
But this is so much harder
When I’m far away from home

I tell them I love you
I don’t wanna lose you
But they don’t mind

I hardly believe me
I always deceive me
Time after time

Gay thoughts again, they fill with every drink
Gay thoughts again, consuming everything
Gay thoughts are mine, but they don’t feel like me
These thoughts are somebody that I don’t wanna be

I tell them I love you
I don’t wanna lose you
But they don’t mind

I hardly believe me
I always deceive me
Time after time

Part of it’s nature
The other part seems darker
Don’t know what to blame it on

Try to control my behaviour
But this is so much harder
When I’m far away from home

I tell them I love you
I don’t wanna lose you
But they don’t mind

I hardly believe me
I always deceive me
Time after time

I try to stop all these 
Gay thoughts and feelings
I don’t know where they come from

Oh all of these gay thoughts
I’ve had trouble concealing
Since I was fairly young

I tell them I love you
I don’t wanna lose you
But they don’t mind

I hardly believe me
I always deceive me
Time after time